Awaken

 “Cogito, ergo sum.  I think therefore I am.”  0 Rene’ D’Escartes

“Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen”. Hebrews 11:1 

 

In my home, I have a print of a painting by Monet in a muted gold frame in my dining room.  Monet had captured a moment in time of a woman standing on a doorstep with a young girl playing in the garden in the front of his house in Giverny, France.  

 

I woke up thinking about this print and began crying.  I was crying because in my mind, I was the woman in the garden in Giverny and the little girl is my child. It had been a dream I had working towards unconsciously for years.  And I was torn between the power of my imagination and all the possibilities and beauty for my life, and a reality that said it was no longer possible to have a child and that my time is limited.  A world where we are human beings looking out a universe never understanding that our consciousness and thoughts are part of God and that we are therefore God.  Not realizing we are focuses of light and energy with the power to transform everything around us. and that everything is thought.   “I think therefore, I am."  And because of it, we are trapped in a world with a raging virus and decaying environment of our own making bound by fixed physical parameters that we don’t believe we have the power to change.  

 

And it came to my mind previous flashes of insight seeing a deeper understanding that I and others have been fighting throughout eternity to awaken our spirits and unlock the doors that hold us within.  And I thought of my brilliant nephew who has been classified as developmentally disabled and autistic who told me once, “the door is locked, and I can’t open it.” And who played scenes from the movie Monster.com on his iPad for me where a little girl unlocked the doors to free the monsters who weren't really monsters at all.  I thought of the Wizard of Oz in which Dorothy who discovers she always had the power to go home in her ruby red slippers.  And I realized that the answer has always been within us, that everything we do is a reflection of the conscious and unconscious and this deeper order of truth we have kept from ourselves.  And I thought of Carl Jung’s quote “One does not become enlightened by imaging figures of light but by making the darkness conscious.”  

 

We are all Spirit.  We just don’t know it.  We are all part of God, but we don’t believe it.  With God, all things are possible.  

 

I believe it is possible for me to have a child and to live in a house with a beautiful garden.  I am brilliant with a light that cannot be contained.  I am of God.  And I am here to awaken.

 

"The Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it.  And the Lord God commanded the man, "You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die." Genesis 2:15 NIV

We ate from the tree of knowledge and we  no longer know.
Jesus was all knowing.
Sometimes I know.
Sometimes I don't know.
Sometimes I don't know and nobody else knows.
Sometimes I don't know and everybody knows.
Sometimes I know and others know.
Sometimes I know and everybody knows.
I always know.
Everybody knows.